Anxious

I can't even identify all of the reasons for it, but for the last few days, I feel like I am in over drive.  I am so anxious and stressed about everything.  I know this stems from some serious anxiety about our doctor's appt on Friday.  I suck at waiting patiently, I want to know now, damnit!  I think H's freak out didn't help calm my nerves, and I won't fault him for it, and I won't tell him this, otherwise he probably will keep more to himself, which I don't want.  I just want Friday to get here so I can get some info and hopefully a plan that makes me feel better, like we're doing something.

The second big stressor this week for me was my puppy's surgery - she got spayed yesterday.  It's a good thing she didn't know what was coming, I've been more than anxious enough for the both of us!  I feel so much better now that she's back home, I missed her while she was away yesterday!

And now all I want to do is go hang out with her downstairs but I'm stuck up in my office working late!  (I'm logged into someone's computer so I can't take it downstairs with me).  I realize this isn't a huge deal, but because I'm already stressed, this is making me feel crazy!  I'm watching a copy and paste that is taking too fucking long!  See?  See how crazy I am today??  And that's just one example, it's taken next to nothing for me to feel like I'm unraveling this week.  Glad I work from home - yesterday there was a point I was logged into 4 computers trying to fix them, had 6 voicemails to return, plus my inbox.  I started to tear up, cursed loudly, then remembered how shitty it would be to work in an office and NOT be able to do that.  

I just need Friday to come, to finish work and snuggle with my poor cone-wearing pup, and chill the fuck out.  Deep breaths....