Beta #2 is in!

I won't lie, I continued to pee on all the sticks this weekend, but you know what?  It helped.  That beautiful dark line just kept staring back at me, and the cheapies are actually getting darker every day.  It's kind of awesome to see the progression.  But it helped me stay sane while waiting for beta #2 and that's what matters.

Beta #2 was this morning and it is awesome!!!  Silly nurse didn't have my chart in front of her, but she said it was a bit over 800, woo hoo!!!  She said the doubling time is perfect and they are super happy with everything.  ::cue happy dance::  Holy shit, it's starting to sink in.  I'm actually pregnant.  Squeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

That is the end of betas for me.  I go back next Tues for my first u/s!  I could not be more excited to see what's happening in there, and really nervously excited to see if both embabies decided to stick around!  The only downfall, which I'm quite disappointed about, is that H is out of town on business next week :(  After all we've been through, I know he really wants to be there.  But there's not much we can do about it.  Hopefully it will be an awesome appt and I will get pictures I can share with him afterwards.  I wonder if they'd let me try to Skype....??  LOL.

I am so freaking happy today :)

Beta #1

I still can't even believe I'm writing this.  This week feels so surreal, which I find funny since I have been dreaming about it for two years!  I went in for my much-pushed-for beta this morning.  I walked in and the nurses behind the desk just laughed.  I said, "I tried!" (to wait until tomorrow) but I did not try, I want my beta, and I want it now, damnit!  I also told them the the test this morning was amazing and I just had to know.  The test line this morning actually looks a little darker than yesterday, maybe even darker than the control line!

This was a huge relief since I panicked last night thinking this was all a mistake and somehow it couldn't be true.  I was actually super eager to POAS again this morning, just to check.  I was so unbelievably grateful to see that second line start to pop up almost immediately, then bam!  Dark line!

After the clinic, I came home and basically stared at the clock until it was noon and I could call for the results.  For the first time ever, I called to get beta results and the nurse was excited and happy and told me it's good news!  Beta #1 came back at 199!!!!!!!!!  Holy fucking shit!!!!!  She said congrats and some other things, I got all tongue tied and didn't really know what to say next!  I go back on Monday for beta #2 and will be praying for another great beta!  I guess I need to work on not saying "I might be pregnant".  For some reason, those two little words were like a shield over my heart, trying to protect me from the worst.
 But holy shit guys, today, I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!   (OMG, I can't believe I just wrote that!!!!  Aaaahhh!!!!)