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Seriously?!  And I missed it, haha!  I guess I've been distracted this week.

I remember when I first started this blog I thought no one would ever read it.  Like ever.  I didn't think anyone would care about little old me and my woes, but clearly I was a tad off base, I have recently got over 10,000 hits - WHAT?!  I have also connected with so many of my favourite internet friends and stalkers :)  It doesn't even feel right to say that anymore because so many of you are so much more than "internet friends".  You are my support and encouragement, you give me advice and wisdom that I am ever grateful for.  You have become important people in my life.  For those reasons, I could not be more grateful for starting this blog, because it allowed me to connect with so many amazing people.  IF can be a lonely and scary ride, and I am confident that if it weren't for you guys, I would have lost my shit ages ago.  (And in some posts, I already did :/)

Thank you for making me not feel alone.  Thank you for your ongoing love and support.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here during the most difficult and trying time in my life.
Sincerely,
Jen

 

Moving right along!

Today is CD10 in our IVF cycle.  I will be honest, the last week has been rough, the nausea has been unforgiving and I may have been sick a few times over the weekend, blech!  But hopefully it will all be worth it, right??  We dropped my stims to 75 yesterday, keeping the Lupron at 10.  I had monitoring this morning.  I had to go in earlier today, as I had to start work early, and boy was it busy!  Usually by the time I go, later morning, I almost have the place to myself, maybe another person, maybe two, but today there were lots of couples, and a couple kids/strollers, which I'm not used to since they're never there during my usual time slot.  But it did give me plenty of time to ninja my chart :)

Those follies are coming along nicely, my doctor was super happy with my progress thus far, and commented again about what a quick responder I am!  I did another 75 of Puregon/10 Lupron this morning and they want to see me back tomorrow.  Guessing ER will be Thurs, maybe Fri.  I can't believe it's all happening so fast, but I'm also glad to be moving along since I have been feeling like crap while stimming this cycle.  Knock on wood, this morning I'm feeling a little less queasy and I'm praying that trend continues.  

Even though I was having a it of a tough time with the nausea, what an amazing weekend!  We had beautiful, long awaited weather, and my dreamers came to visit!!!  We squeezed a lot into our two days (Jays game, aquarium, zoo, driving tour, Abby walk) but we had a great time, or at least I did!!  It was so good to finally meet in person.  And since I know you'll eventually stalk this, thank you so much for coming to visit ladies, I had such a fantastic weekend with you both!!!  Love you!  <3

Chugging along

In cycle news, today is day 3 of Puregon and Lupron and I am having flashbacks to my first cycle with injects - I have been nauseated more than not since yesterday morning.  Ugh.  I just hope it doesn't last too long, like into next week's ER and stuff, that would not be ideal.  I woke up at 7am feeling like my stomach was doing somersaults, cue brain to go into over drive stressing about anything and everything, including feeling queasy.  Yeah, that definitely helped.  Yesterday it subsided by dinner time, well late dinner time I suppose.  Today, well we haven't quite reached the end for today.  Along with the nausea, I can already feel stuff going on in the ovary region - go follies, go!  I go in tomorrow for a check to see how they're doing.

Tonight I have my first appt with the psychologist - thankfully she had a cancellation so I grabbed it, quick!  With the week I've had, I really need this.  That being said, I'm rather anxious about it.  It seems crazy to me to be anxious about going to talk to someone largely about my anxiety, haha, but I guess it's a prime example.  I'm just hoping that I like her and that it all goes well.  I really hope she can suggest some things to do when I start to feel myself getting anxious and crazy.  I know I will need that particularly for ER and ET.  It can be so hard to calm my mind sometimes, I'm really hoping she has some ideas for me.

The very best part of my week is just over 24 hrs away.  I am thisclose to finally meeting two of my fellow dreamers and I am so freaking excited!!!  I can't believe they're coming here, I am so touched that they would come all this way for little old me, but I plan on making it worth their while :)  We have tickets for a Jays game on Sat afternoon, the weather (knock on wood!) is looking great for some downtown wandering adventures, hopefully some patio drinks, and lots of other ideas but I am most looking forward to is just all being in the same place together and getting to talk, like, really talk, not just on FB chat.  It's amazing that after all we've been through, all the things we've discussed, how close I feel to these women, I can't believe this will be the first time we've ever actually met in person.  Can you tell I'm excited?!?!  Come on, Friday night!!

Especially with being in the IF closet, this couldn't be more true <3