Holy shit, I just can't believe it. I am so freaking happy right now, it is truly an amazing feeling, especially since it is so rare with our IF journey. We have a frostie, SQUEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
It honestly feels like a weight has been lifted, I was so worried about not having a plan b (I've been doing this long enough that I always want a plan b in the wings, ready to go) but now, we have that option. We could do a FET if we needed to. I pray with every fibre of my being that we don't need to use it any time soon, but the relief of knowing we can is so good for my mental well being. It feels like a tiny ounce of pressure has been lifted off this cycle, not having all our eggs (or embryos!) in one basket. And I know no one knows what is happening with the two we transferred, but this gives me so much hope for them. We transferred our best two, so if #3 made it to day 6 and good enough to freeze, I can't help but feel extra hopeful about the quality of the ones we did transfer. I feel like I can breathe a little easier, and it sure is helping me to stay in a good head space. I know I just started in the 2ww, and I will not doubt ride the IF emotional roller coaster along the way, but for the first time in a long time, I am happy, and hopeful, excited and optimistic.
Random funny story: before bed last night, I told H to keep his fingers crossed for our embie #3 and hope we get good news today. He says, "I'm crossing my fingers so hard for good news for our blastobaby". Just one of many reasons I love this man! Blastobaby, haha, I love it!
